Psalm 131

Read : 
Psalm 131 

¹ I have no haughty looks.
² or with things that are too hard for me.
³ But I still my soul and make it quiet,

like a child upon its mother's breast;*

my soul is quieted within me.

⁴ O Israel, wait upon the LORD,*

from this time forth for evermore. 

Think: 

I know I've got baby brain.  Its really no wonder, my best friend has a two year old, my sister has a 1 year old, three of my dearest friends are due in February, March and April, my cousin and his wife who are my age just had their second.  My husband's best friend and his wife just had their second as well, I feel like I am surrounded by babies. Its just the time in my life when this happens.  Today I actually stopped at my sister's house just to play with my god daughter for 15 minutes before heading back home to day- so that I could make my soul quiet, and hold her close to my chest for a few minutes.  But she was not really having it today.  She didn't want to be held, certainly not by me, she wanted her Dad.  I was so jealous.  I wanted to be able to take her into my arms and comfort her.  I want to know what its like to comfort someone so totally to make them want to be still to make their soul quiet.  Then I remembered, I can do that, well I can't do that, but I can take a deep breath, calm my body and my mind and allow myself to be comforted by the Holy Spirit. That's what this whole lectio thing is about after all.  Finding time to be comforted and fed by God because its not God that is rushing around like a nut, its me.  So today when I read this Psalm at first I thought I wanted to be the mother- which is true, I do want to be a mother, in God's time it will happen but I also want to be the child with my soul quieted within me.  

Pray: 

Dear Jesus, you told your disciples that you would comfort them like a mother comforts her child, like a mother hen protects her brood.  Come and comfort me as a mother and allow me time to understand that in your good time I will become a mother who can comfort her child.  Remind me not to be jealous of those are granted the gift of children to love the children of family and friends graciously and patiently wait for the day to come when we will be parents.  Comfort and protect us in all ways and in all places.  Through you, the Mother, Son and Holy Spirit.  Amen 

Contemplation : 

15 Minutes Contemplative Prayer